Thursday, December 30, 2010

Remember Me....?!

... Shaking dust from keyboard... hello out there... remember me...?!

This has been an absolutely amazing year, and the next one I anticipate to be as amazing or better... God is in the heavens and while all may be wrong in the world, luckily I don't have to worry about all that... I can just smile in faith, keep the hope in love, and sing.

I've started a weight loss journey blog...
it is called Walk, Breathe, Sing, Laugh, Give & Repeat

and I started in the middle of November without even knowing that my step-father would offer to pay for Medifast if I was open to trying it as a way to getting healthy. Seriously an answer to prayer, for it has opened up my trapped negative feelings about the relationship I have with him, and well, it is extremely generous, and well -- to sum it up... God is an Awesome God.

Originally it was going to be a log/accountability method of really getting serious with walking to get healthier -- and maybe even to start running again (after losing 100+ lbs first). Now I hope it will be an honest account of my experience - the good, the bad, the ugly, the sublime. The hope, the strength, the successes, the failures, the support, the stuff that makes me get the idea.

I really would like to be able to write every day. Both blogs, really -- this one for some of the lighter stuff -- singing, barbershop, quartet, Sweet Adelines, paper crafting and social activities, the other one for the emotional catharsis that I will be going through as I fight the food addiction and emotional eating issues.

It is a forever battle, this eating thing -- and I'm looking forward to Medifast as I would look forward to starting a school that demands all students to wear uniforms. Half of me is so excited to be limited with my choices, as it makes so many less demands on my energy and time and there's no arguing... no head-battles about squeezing in an extra point (not digging on WW, I adore WW and plan to go there after the Medifast Maintenance Plan) or having to choose from such a wide, delicious, tempting array of yumminess that exists in the world.

On the other hand, my inner 3-year old (whom I don't think has really come to understand exactly what is going to be *not eaten* for a long long long time... I don't say never, cuz that is just undermining at the starting line -- but "not now" will be a wonderful tool... but I digress) will soon be stamping her wee little foot and shaking her pig-tails and pouting her lips in anger... then she'll wheedle and cajole in a sweet little voice, "but you're a grown-up, remember...? You can have ANYTHING YOU WANT!!" and the fight will be between staying on plan or going off plan -- but I hope that battle won't be every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every... you get the drift.

I'm going to do another post, cuz this is getting long... but just wanted to wave to all of my followers (all 4 or 5 of you...) that I'm here and plan to be back in full force in 2011.